Day 12- Get Heal

Today is Friday, but my tears can’t still get enough about what happened yesterday. Troubles were so heavy I've dream early this morning that everything was fine already, in my dream our house was not to damage but at the later part I was tearing because it was just a dream and I cry a lot again. Late-night I chatted my cooperating teacher which was Bu Rufi that I will not be around because even though I will go to school, I see myself as an ineffective that’s why I ask for an excuse. I just stay in my bed and keep on crying again but here we go this heartbroken news again, my mom chatted me that my grandmother was just sent to ICU, who was battling for life and death, and the doctor informed them already that anytime she will get attacked again, for that we need to prepare. Tears fall unnoticed, I saw my mom crying in our video call and it hurts me a lot seeing her in that situation. The most painful is that I can’t do anything about it and that hurts me the most. Then suddenly in the afternoon, I was heavily broken for the second time, mom chatted me that my grandma, she already passed away. I feel the heaviness within me. I feel like my heart was stabbed countless times that it can’t breathe anymore. I pray it was very painful I've never been this kind of hurt, in my life so far. But prayer is my comforter, healing takes time. One day my family and I will get through this nightmare. More prayer, for more strength.